Melancholy days

I’m having some hard days since my dad’s passing. Maybe it will help to write about it, I don’t know. My dad was the last physical connection I had to my parents and I’ve been missing them both so much now that he’s gone too. It’s weird but it seems I mourn the loss of my mom more now than before. As long as I’m busy with things I’m fine, but when times are quiet they come to mind then here comes the lump in the throat followed by the tears. Lucky for me Kevin is usually close by for one of those wonderful wrap around hugs he gives so freely. I know he understands. He’s an orphan too.

We all grow up knowing that one day our parents will be gone. It’s the natural order of things. Knowing that though doesn’t prepare you in any way for how heartbreaking it is when it actually happens. It's all weighing pretty heavy right now but I know I’ll work through it all and be fine.   In the meantime, I’ll let myself feel what I need to feel while moving from my physical connection to a spiritual one.