Melancholy days

I’m having some hard days since my dad’s passing. Maybe it will help to write about it, I don’t know. My dad was the last physical connection I had to my parents and I’ve been missing them both so much now that he’s gone too. It’s weird but it seems I mourn the loss of my mom more now than before. As long as I’m busy with things I’m fine, but when times are quiet they come to mind then here comes the lump in the throat followed by the tears. Lucky for me Kevin is usually close by for one of those wonderful wrap around hugs he gives so freely. I know he understands. He’s an orphan too.

We all grow up knowing that one day our parents will be gone. It’s the natural order of things. Knowing that though doesn’t prepare you in any way for how heartbreaking it is when it actually happens. It's all weighing pretty heavy right now but I know I’ll work through it all and be fine.   In the meantime, I’ll let myself feel what I need to feel while moving from my physical connection to a spiritual one. 

Times a waistin'...

I’m 55…already…Wow! It’s funny how you still feel so much younger in your heart and mind. The little aches and pains and what looks back at me in the morning mirror tells it all though. Everyone gets older and that includes me too, like it or not. The years go by so unbelievably fast anymore. In the spirit of that, it’s time to get busy and start doing some new things, some of those things I’ve just talked about but have never actually seen through, like keeping a blog. I’ve always loved the whole idea of blogging and have to admit I get such a kick out of reading the interesting stories and insights in blogs kept by other family members. I hope to be able to likewise entertain with a few posts of my own.
So…that’s one item checked off my “mini” bucket list for 2010. I hope you come and visit "My Bizness" from time to time (for those of you that don’t know, Biz has been a nickname for me on the Parson’s side of my family since I was a toddler) clever, huh?